Another Chance to Trust

I've seen a theme recently in my life, or maybe a lack-there-of theme. It's all about TRUST, or my lack of TRUST.

Why do I find it SO easy to trust the Lord when things are going smoothly, but once things fall out of line in "Brenna's perfect little world", my heart immediately panics, as if God is somehow going to lead me down a path full of misfortunes and leave me there alone.

I truly believe that God has allowed for me to encounter a handful of trials recently, so that He can work in my life and change my lack of trust and at times disbelief/unbelief. Yet, I look back on each situation, and i'm SO THANKFUL for what He has done and accomplished in my life through these trials.

Saturday, I had training for my summer job. I've been a counselor for a summercamp the past three summers, and this year I had been promoted to site supervisor and coordinator. I'd been working on lesson plans, schedules, activities, crafts, field trips, (and so forth) this past semester, and was more than ready to present "my stuff". Not only did I not have an opportunity to do so, but as of right now I am no longer a site supervisor, I'm also no longer a full-time employee. Unfortunately, the too many counselors were hired, and not enough kids were signed up for camp, which results in my dilemma. Upon hearing this news, my heart immediately sank, a knot swelled up in my stomach; how was I going to make enough money this summer for college AND enough money to live off of while in school?
Instead of immediately submitting my fears and "lack-of-trust" to the Lord, my mind to began to race; panicked to find some other way to make money this summer.
And once again, my Sovereign and Amazing God stepped in, took the wheel, and worked things out in His awesome Glory.
And once again, I sit here AMAZED not only at my Savior, but also AMAZED at how easily I forget where the Lord has brought me in the past. He has always been faithful, why during such times, is that thought far from my mind?

I'm thankful that He keeps giving me more chances to trust.